It's funny to me how life has a way of working things out.  Elien, the homeopath, was teetering between two different remedies. Of this, I was unaware.  Oddly enough, I developed a malady that required medical attention during this period.  Coincidentally, I ran into Elien in the office of the school both our children attend.  She excitedly told me she had so much to share but needed just a little time to confirm her thinking.  I shared with her my malady and I swear I could have picked her chin up off the floor.  She told me in that moment that she now knew what I needed and could we meet on Friday.

Friday came and I sat in her lovely, warm space and learned that she had been stuck in deciding between two remedies and that she had asked for guidance.  This was the same day that she had run in to me and I had told her of the malady.  Here's where it gets really cool.  She was battling between Calcarea Carbonica and Carcinosum.  When I  told her of the abscess on my breast, she knew that it was the Carcinosum that I needed for this remedy is derived from "breast cancer tissue".  It is amazing to me how things work and they always do.  This wasn't ultimately going to be my 'constitutional remedy' but turns out to be a critical first layer remover.  And that it did. 

I took the first few pellets and waited.  Within days I could feel the energy moving in my chest and knew that something was happening.  I think that it is really important to say that these remedies are not magic pills...this remedy required work from me.  It demanded that I step up and listen to my heart, that I honor my deepest wishes.  Where I did my work, the changes were remarkable.  I walked away from work that has been a part of my life for 23 years and away from people that I cared deeply about.  I knew that I needed to choose a different road and that this remedy demanded that I look at that.  So look I did!  I wrote down each day the physical changes that I experienced.  I wrote down my dreams.  I wrote down my thoughts and emotional reactions. I created art with amazing gifts in them.  Elien painstakingly listened to all of this and helped me walk through the messages of my mind, body and spirit.  My dreams showed me that it was time to fly, to honor my integrity and my spirit.  Within the first five months of taking this remedy I walked away from my career, spoke up for my beliefs, lived my principles and values, and began to take care of me.  Weight began to fall away (still more to go) but fall away it did.  I could feel the toxicity that I had created begin to cleanse itself and it was good.
 
 
It all began roughly one year ago during a retreat that I was planning for a group of people.  I was setting up massage sessions and yoga sessions and art groups and who knows what else...in this process, I met someone; a woman who was offering to lead a session of Zen Touch.  We sat at a table in the middle of a large meeting room; a place where people come and go all moments of the day.  As I sat with her I felt this bubble around us and it was as if it was only the two of us talking in the midst of all the activity.  Have you ever had that experience with someone you meet?  It hasn't happened very often for me so I knew that this lady was something special or at least that we had a very good connection.  We talked about everything under the sun...my work, her work, our dreams, hopes and wishes.  I learned that she practiced homeopathy and massage therapy and that she worked as a doula.  We parted company and she was set  to lead the Zen Touch session. 

The retreat came and went and I knew that I needed to see this lady.  I had a fairly chronic problem with some female issues and was in great need of bodywork as the woman I had worked with for years had recently moved out of state.  So I set an appt. with her for bodywork.  When I entered her office ready for a massage, I quickly discovered that there were other plans in place.  She took a physical, mental,emotional and spiritual history querying me about the origins of my cycle issues, life history, patterns and much, much more.   As the story unfolded, it became clear that I wasn't there for a  massage but that what I really needed was her wisdom around homeopathy.  I left her office with a feeling of hope and excitement.  I knew that she had really heard the fears, worries, dreams and physical manifestations that result from those thoughts and I knew that she would work hard on my behalf to help me walk this journey. 

What I have come to learn is that Homeopathy is not only science but also artistry. This kind of work takes time and reflection.   She spent a month reviewing all my indicators, matching them to homeopathic matrices and provings and at the end of that month, she had made a decision about which remedy would be best for me.
 
 
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I can often be heard asking people to tell me their story.  I'm interested and I know that I can learn so much from hearing other people's experiences...with this in mind, I begin my next series of entries to tell you about a new and yet old story unfolding for me.  It is my hope that the telling of this story may help others in some small way...

I have been on a bit of a journey for a little while now and more recently have been working with an amazing woman who specializes in homeopathy.  While not entirely serious or grave, I have struggled with some physical symptoms that require my attention.  What is beautiful about the homeopathy process is that, like my orientation, homeopathy believes that illness originates in mental and emotional processes.  Certainly there are "organic" origins but much of what ails begins in our noodle!  She took a history unlike any that I have ever experienced.  This woman knows more about me inside and out than any other practitioner I've met.  She can now listen to something I say and tell me what my core feelings are in absolutely accurate terms.  She uses all of this data to analyze what my constitutional needs are and to recommend a remedy to help support me in moving towards greater balance.  There is amazing science behind this and I will, in the next few posts, insert links to this fascinating research.  In any case, the journey that I would like to share with you over the next several entries will tell the story of what it has been like to walk this road.  The remedy brings to the forefront of your experience a you like you might not have known or seen in awhile.  The lessons are immense.  This is not a magic pill that erases all symptoms but rather a natural counterpoint that requires the user to do their work.  It has taken me into interesting art, writing, dream work and reflection.  The intelligence of the process is astounding.  My commitment is to write a little each day for the next couple of weeks until I get the story out.  Much more to come...